I’m still here, just busy, and I don’t ever like my blogging to feel like work. I have to wait until the spirit moves me, so to speak. And here I am! Moved. I’ve gotten more into bird watching lately. … Continue reading
I hate waste, and I love color – and that’s how I ended up making this super chunky, stripey, colorful baby sweater. I have a basket of tiny yarn balls of all delicious colors, left over from other projects, that … Continue reading
It’s safe to say that my mom has a green thumb. In fact, it seems like she has about 10 green thumbs. That woman can make anything grow, indoors or outdoors. While I was visiting her over Christmas she showed … Continue reading
Last night I was so tired. I came home and ate ice-cream for supper and I watched Canadian Bachelorette and I cried on the phone to my mom and then I went to bed. When I woke up this morning, I was still tired and I was still crying.
I have a feeling that I’m going to be tired for a while, and I have a feeling that I am not alone. I am so tired of witnessing the cruelty of other human beings.
Sometimes it’s the little stuff, like being chewed out by a customer last week because I was unable to accept her return of an $8.99 bottle of elderflower cordial that she no longer wanted. People are starving all over the world ma’m. If you have enough money to buy elderflower cordial, then you don’t really need to worry about returning it for a full refund do you?
It’s the idiot driver of the car in front of me yesterday who berated a homeless man sitting at the intersection after he refused the offer of a banana. Maybe he just doesn’t like bananas sir. You just got angry because he ruined your plan to feel better about yourself for that day.
But mostly it’s the big stuff. It’s the fact that we have a presidential candidate who hates women, the impoverished, and anybody who isn’t white – who might actually get elected because apparently there are vast numbers of people in this country who also hate women, the impoverished, and anybody who isn’t white.
It’s the murdering of innocent black people by police. And it’s the realization that some people see nothing wrong with this, because they assume that the victim has done something to deserve it. Because they were black. So they must be bad.
It’s too much and it makes me tired and it makes me mad.
I want to have a child someday, but I am so happy that I don’t have one right now. How on earth could I possibly find a way to explain this to them, w/out making them think the world is a horrible, frightening place? How must mothers of black babies and wives of black men feel right now? I imagine them being very reluctant to let any of their loved ones out of their sight. I imagine them hesitant to let their little black boys play outside or walk to a friend’s house after school.
The point of this post is not to make you feel awful, or guilty, or helpless. The point is to ask you to stop and think, about little kindnesses and acts of justice that can be worked into your day. There is always more that we can do. We can choose to stand up for someone who is being bullied. We can choose to listen to someone who is having a bad day. We can choose to think before we react in situations that upset us. We can make thoughtful and research informed choices about who governs our towns, cities, states, and country. We can fight racism every day, by calling out and educating our friends and family who participate in it and promote it. We can remind black and brown children what gifts they are to the world, and we can teach white children to think that as well.
We can decide not to tolerate hate.
I’m tired, but my white, middle class tiredness pales in comparison to the absolute exhaustion that must be felt by so many people in this country who are consistently attacked, discriminated against, and beat down. The fact that I’m just tired, and not scared for my life and the lives of my loved ones, is a reflection of my privilege. I have to choose what I do with that privilege, and I’m asking you to do the same.
Oh it’s been so long! When I went to bed last night I had planned on waking up today and doing a blog post to finish my Greece series, but then the dog woke me up early (why does that … Continue reading
Today, the nation celebrates my birthday. And Prince Philip’s birthday. And Mac, the beanie baby cardinal’s birthday. Or maybe only I celebrate my birthday. We went out for a delicious birthday supper last night, I opened oodles of presents and cards … Continue reading
It’s been over a year now since we visited Greece, and I realize that I’m only a quarter of the way through showing you our trip. The Athens post is here, if you’d like to look back at that. Following our … Continue reading
Did I buy my 26 year old self a new teddy bear? I sure did. Did I name it? You bet. He is officially known as Cardamom the Craft Bear. I was drinking a lot of chai tea at the … Continue reading
My mom (Pat) has been making these sticky buns for years, and they have become a family favorite. Now you can make them too! I will warn you, they are time consuming. But they aren’t difficult. Bun Ingredients: 1 box … Continue reading
Oh I must apologize again. It’s been a long time since my last post. Things have just felt so busy! And we’ve recently learned that we need to move, as the house we are renting is being sold. It’s quite a … Continue reading